Random Musings

Category: mental health

  • Nine years living

    Nine years living

    Living is a challenge you have to accept each day.

  • Not one, but three…

    Not one, but three…

    Three fantastic LGBTQ books out in July. Vampires, neurodiverse queers, and a whole lot of sapphic stories.

  • Tough Days Suck. Hold On.

    I’m still here. And the day started out pretty positive. It felt like a day to celebrate being here, rather than to reflect on how very close I came to the end. I thought of all the things I would have missed. The moments with my wife, (marrying my wife),…

  • Every step

    Imagine waking up and finding that in order to get to your destination that day, you had to walk a tightrope. And anywhere you had to go after had to be via tightrope. Cafe, bakery, doctor, groceries, park…all via tightrope. And then the next day was the same. And the…

  • Polenta Apple Pie

    Wife: How are you feeling? Me, contemplating: I need a code word. Wife: You mean so you don’t have to keep saying you feel like shit? Me, nodding. Wife, thinking: okay… Polenta. Me, serious: Polenta. Yes. Wife: Apple Pie for medium, carrot cake for great. Me, nodding. Wife: so how…

  • Roar Back

    2021 isn’t looking a hell of a lot more promising than 2020, is it? Just another vast, fuzzy space of days where even my sweatpants feel a little snug. The pandemic rages on, with death counts and variants vying for headlines with governmental politics over the vaccine. There was a…

  • The Day I Didn’t

    January 16th is my rebirthday. It’s the day I didn’t die. But I’d meant to. It was planned. I’ve blogged about this before, and I’ll blog about it every year because I think it’s important not to sweep mental health things under the tattered covers. Because when we don’t talk…