Random Musings

I was going to write about something totally different tonight, but when I logged in, I happened to see my view stats…

Yikes.

Only my last two blogs got ANY views, and only one made it into double digits. There was a time it was often in triple digits. If I’d seen before that no one reads these writings anymore, I might not have bothered to begin writing today at all.

It turns out I’m actually screaming into a void. One where I’m the only one in it.

And yet…

I can’t bring myself not to write. I can’t bring myself to shut down this blog that I’ve had for so many years now. It’s a place I’ve dropped a lot of dark thoughts, happy thoughts, plans, despair, and joy. It’s a place where, once upon a time, I had a small community.

Do you read blogs anymore? I think of all the emails I get in my inbox and know how many I delete without opening them. Not because I don’t want to read them, but simply because I don’t have the time to read the many thoughts and ponderings of others that I signed up to follow.

There’s so much noise. So many voices, so many thoughts, so many people trying to reach out and say…something. And because there are so many, none of can seem to hear each other. How do I tell you what’s going on in my life? How do I share my book news, my writing guides, my thoughts on what it is to be alone among people and how important community is anyway?

And so I stay here. I keep shouting into the void. Maybe one day we’ll make it back to each other.

I hope you’re well. Feel free to comment and check in if you happen to get past the noise and end up here.